Dear Jorah,

Sometimes mommy and daddy are about to lose it!! You are refusing alot of food. You've started refusing breakfast and that's the meal you usually are good at eating too. We thought it was due to your molars coming in but this has been happening for weeks! You don't eat bread, pancake, waffle, eggs, oatmeal, fruits, muffins, anything! Daddy wants to starve you today until lunch but I don't know if I have the heart to, but I understand where he's coming from. You need to learn to eat! Every meal is a battle with you :( Please just eat.

Dear Adin,

You were so good at breastfeeding last night! You drank 10 cc, which is about a third of what you'd normally get from a meal! You latched on really good and just kept sucking. Mommy is so proud of you! Then I held you in my arms while you fell asleep and I placed my cheek against yours. I love smelling you. Do you know it's mommy? See you tonight baby. Mommy loves you.

Dear Jorah,

Sorry mommy hasn't been writing about you. I've been busy with you!! Lets see, you are one crazy, energetic boy. You understand most of what we say and you nod your head yes or no when we ask you questions. You are still napping 30 min, twice a day, no matter how tired you are, it's always 30 min. Mommy thinks you have a clock inside of you that sets off every 30 min. Most of the time it's right on the dot, scary huh? You love saying da da and rarely ever say ma ma, unless you need something from me. You love to dance, wiggle and pump (so cute!!). When I go to pump and tell you  I'm about to pump, you start pumping your arms haha. You love saying "bath" "mail" and "ruff ruff" for the sound that dogs make. You love watching the iPad in the car and will immediately say "pa" over and over again as soon as you're in the car seat. You don't like eating but the things you do love are Mac and cheese, plain rice, soup noodles and corn. You love sleeping with your blanket and will sometimes throw yourself at it (haha so funny). You've just started growing your molars and I think it's making you not want to eat even more :T you sleep at 8 and wake up between 7-730. You love it when mommy sing you songs before putting you to bed. You still put your head on my shoulder and I love it. I know it won't last long so I'll cherish it for as long as I can. Mommy loves you.

Dear Adin,

The last few days, you've been latching on really well and got a couple of good sucks but today your jaundice levels came back up (to 11.2) and you were so sleepy, you didnt breastfeed. Nothing we did woke you up too :( It makes me so sad that it's making you so sleepy. I hope tomorrow you will be better. Mommy loves you.

Dear Adin,

They took off your umbilical cord today!! And stuck an IV :( .. But at least you didn't have to get a PICC which looks painful. They say if you continue feeding well, you won't need the IV for much longer.

Also, your jaundice level came down! It was at a 12 and today it's at a 7. They're going to test you again tomorrow. I hope it continues going down. 

They took off alot of wires today so you're only left with a few. They've also given you a onesie :) 

I held you this afternoon and tried breastfeeding. You mostly nuzzled but you got a couple of good sucks in. You fell asleep on me skin to skin. I wonder if you know it's mommy.

Welcome to the world Adin! Sorry mommy hasn't been on time with updating. So much has been going on and it's hard to find time when you have an active, clingy toddler!!

Lets see. You're 1 week and 2 days old now. Mommy and daddy have been visiting you everyday after we put Jorah to sleep. It's heartbreaking seeing you in the incubator with so many wires attached to you, but we know you're in good hands and we just need to be patient and watch you grow to be healthy. Since you were born, you've been taken off the cpap (a mask that helps you breathe better) and the oxygen tube (which pushes air in, to give you a boost). So as far as learning how to breathe on your own, you've got this!! They've also been increasing yourself intake since you've been digesting it well. Oh and two days ago, you breast fed!! All these nurses were blown away since they were expecting to have to teach you how to suck. You're my little miracle!! I can't wait until you learn how to fully suck. Mommy will come over often to feed you.  You also need to learn how to regulate your temperature and pass the carseat test -- then you get to come home!!! Mommy cannot wait to hug and kiss you all day. Your big brother is in for a surprise. 

Here you are tonight without your oxygen tubes. Feels much better huh? You still have a tube that goes from your nose to your stomach. You had it in your mouth before but they switched it to your nose so you can breast feed better.

I wonder if you still recognize mommy's voice. I hate that you're in there and not with me. I promise I'll make it up to you when you come home. Mommy loves you. 

I haven't written in so long, mommy is so sorry!!! Lets see, we'll baby #2 is a boy! Omg we're in trouble. Double the fun .. And trouble! Daddy wanted a girl (again) but no can do, fate gave us 2 little boys. I'm excited to meet you baby!

Jorah, you've been growing so fast lately, learning so many things are lightening speed. You point at things you want now, like water or milk or going outside. You've also started growing a huge personality and have started throwing tantrums and fits (fun!). Feeding you is still a battle and we always have to entertain you. You love looking at photo albums, esp yours and you point at everyone when I say their names. When we asked you where Jorah was, you opened up your hands and smiled haha, like "not there, I don't know". SO CUTE! I died of cuteness. And today, you said "gong gong" when Grandpa called me!!!!! Happiest grandpa ever!!! :) :) it seems like you are understanding so much now, growing too fast. Mommy loves you two boys.