It's so funny, when you can't suck out anymore milk, you started hitting my breast like "more more!". So cute :)

You are super attached to me .. You scream every time someone else holds you and you see me. People say that's a bad thing because I don't get any work done, the not getting any work done is true, but I love that you prefer me, that you want mommy. Mommy loves you alot too! 

Catch up session

So since I haven't blogged for the past 6mo, I have to catch you up on everything that's happened!

Lets see -- first few weeks were so stressful. On top of the usual zombie schedule of you waking up every 2 hours to feed, you also had jaundice. We had to bring you to the hospital everyday for the first week to get blood drawn and it was SO painful for me to watch you get pricked every day. Why would they want to do that a few days old baby?? You cried so much every time. You didn't understand pain, that was your first time feeling it. :( You didn't actually get over our jaundice until past 3mo. Mommy had breastmilk jaundice, which prolonged the jaundice even longer. I had to feed you formula for a week straight so get your jaundice level down. We had to give you sun almost everyday. It worried mommy and daddy since we didn't understand why it wasn't going down. 

Oh and you've stopped taking the bottle. You're so picky! You were taking the bottle for a while, then only allowed Grandpa (Daddy's dad) to feed you, then all of a sudden, you completely refused it. I went to work for 7 hours one day and you starved yourself! You have a nice collection of 6 different bottles and nipples, all of which you reject. 

Speaking of work, I quit my job. I went back to work for 2 weeks and they came back to me and said I couldn't work from home while taking care of you. Originally they said I could. We had this program called ROWE which allowed us to work anywhere and anytime we wanted. I ROWE'd alot when you were still in my tummy. So they asked me to get a babysitter. Your Daddy's parents said they're too old to take fare of you and mommys parents live too far away. And Daddy has always wanted you to have the stay at home mom experience ... so there you have it. You have mommys attention 100% all day every day .. And I wouldn't want to have it any other way. I love all my time with you.

You love taking baths. You cried the very first time but none for the rest. Even when you have water dropping down your face, you're perfectly fine and even smile when you see me looking at you. Watch the videos. They're super cute :)

You've recently started to roll over, only to your right side though. That's your preference. You can also sit on your own now, when you lean forward. 

There are alot of things that make you smile, like when I sing to you, when I make sounds with my lips, looking at the mirror, when I make sounds on your stomach, when I kiss your neck and inner thigh, and best of all, when I just smile at you. 

You've also started to bite my chin. I think you're teething, but instead of hewing on the teething toys, you find joy rubbing youth gums against my chin haha. So cute. You do this while pulling on my hair. Not so fun haha. 

Till this day (6mo), you still need to be rocked to sleep. Probably our fault, but we can't stand letting you cry. You won't be little forever and before we know it, you won't want to be rocked and held, so I'll enjoy this a little bit more.

You love it when we read books to you. Even the longer ones, you'll sit through. Mommy and Daddy read to you everyday, avg about 5 books/day. We will continue this and hope you'll enjoy reading books when you're older.

First time sleeping in your own bed in your own room, door closed. Sigh. My heart is so broken .. 

Hi again!

It's been a while since I've written. I haven't forgotten about you! It's quite the opposite - I'm so busy with you! But I love it and I wouldn't have it any other way. You see, i decided I wanted to stop writing after your birth since it was so time consuming but as you started hitting your milestones and as I go through interesting times, I can't seem to get this journal thing off my mind. Its great to write about it (get it off my chest) and i also id also like to ve reminded of these times when you get older. So I'm back at it.

What provoked me to start writing tonight? Well .. you're going to start sleeping in your own room tomorrow and it makes me so sad I'm tearing up now. I don't even know why I'm so emotional about it. Every mother goes through this right? I don't know. Ever since you were in existence, you've always been in me or next to me. Now we have to be separated by a wall and two closed doors. I worry that you'll be cold or too hot and I won't be able to just turn around and see. I worry you'd be scared. I worry you'd look for me and I wouldn't want you to have any sort if lonely feelings because mommy is always here! <3. You've been waking up and turning to your side. I think it's because you know I lay to the left of you. When you sleep in your own bed, you won't be able to do that anymore. But Mommy will look at the monitor all the time to make sure you're ok. Mommy loves you very much.